Post by Elienp on Oct 11, 2011 2:57:13 GMT -8
Title: Don't stop watching me.
Words: 631
Rating: PG
Warning: none I can think of.
Summary: George is broken, angry, but has many plans for the future, because Fred loved Life, he won't waste his.
I'd like today to be yesterday. I'd like the night to have never come. I'd like the sun to have never risen.
Because, Yesterday, you were still alive...
I could see your eyes, your smile. You always managed to smile in spite of the situation, in spite of the war. You were stronger than me. My smile had become rarer and, now, I don't feel like smiling any more, not before a long time at least.
I won't say I miss you.
Some bastard, I don't remember – and don't care – who, told me to look at myself in a mirror to see you. What a...
How can somebody be so stupid? How can they think I'm the same as you? How can they think it's all only about a face? I don't remember who it was, but I do know the person got a broken nose. You know me, I'm not a violent person, but I'm angry.
Angrier than sad, I think it'd be wrong to say I'm sad, because sad isn't strong enough to describe my feelings.
But I won't say I'm broken.
I'll live. I'll live so as you will be proud of me. I won't become a ghost, a burden, or a worry for our family.
One day, I'll laugh and smile again. One day, I'll be able to stop hating this world, I'd have learnt to accept it without you.
I know it'll happen, but it belongs to the future. First, I need to be angry. I only feel like hating everything, everybody. I blame them all for your death, as much as I blame myself.
I should have saved you. I should have been clever enough to see the attack coming. I should have prevented it.
I failed you. Once. I won't do it again. I promise.
From wherever you are, you'll see how well I will do, for me, for you. I'll live the life you can't have. I'll live for us both. I'll be happy, because if I'm not, I know your ghost won't leave me in alone. I know you well enough, even death wouldn't prevent you from coming back to lecture me.
Life is a treasure. A treasure which it would be unforgivable to waste. So I won't.
I will take care of our business, of this adventure we started together because of our craziness, of your faith in us, in me. I will make us the Kings. The shop is our kingdom, it will never be only mine. Each of us is a part, a half of that kingdom, it'll always be thus.
Do you know why I'm writing? No? Neither I do. I don't care, I feel slightly better doing it.
Do you know how I will send it to you? No? Come on! I know you have an idea. I have some too, but they're not great. It's midnight, night was your time, day is mine. Well, I will nevertheless find something. It has to be impressive! By dragon? Why not, unfortunately it's not very original.
I'll find better. Would you mind giving me a clue? What a lazy ass you are even now! I'm kidding...
In fact, at that very moment, I'm crying... Perhaps my tears will bring you my words?
They express my feelings better than anything else.
Keep an eye on me! I'll show you, I don't know precisely what yet, but I will show you something you'll be proud of.
I won't say I miss you.
I won't say I love you.
I won't say I'm proud of you.
I will only say you'll see. You'll see the proofs of everything I won't say.
You'll see what I'll do for you, for us.
You'll see.
I'll show you.
So, don't stop watching me!
Edit: 10 Points Awarded by Fate, 12/10/11.
Words: 631
Rating: PG
Warning: none I can think of.
Summary: George is broken, angry, but has many plans for the future, because Fred loved Life, he won't waste his.
I'd like today to be yesterday. I'd like the night to have never come. I'd like the sun to have never risen.
Because, Yesterday, you were still alive...
I could see your eyes, your smile. You always managed to smile in spite of the situation, in spite of the war. You were stronger than me. My smile had become rarer and, now, I don't feel like smiling any more, not before a long time at least.
I won't say I miss you.
Some bastard, I don't remember – and don't care – who, told me to look at myself in a mirror to see you. What a...
How can somebody be so stupid? How can they think I'm the same as you? How can they think it's all only about a face? I don't remember who it was, but I do know the person got a broken nose. You know me, I'm not a violent person, but I'm angry.
Angrier than sad, I think it'd be wrong to say I'm sad, because sad isn't strong enough to describe my feelings.
But I won't say I'm broken.
I'll live. I'll live so as you will be proud of me. I won't become a ghost, a burden, or a worry for our family.
One day, I'll laugh and smile again. One day, I'll be able to stop hating this world, I'd have learnt to accept it without you.
I know it'll happen, but it belongs to the future. First, I need to be angry. I only feel like hating everything, everybody. I blame them all for your death, as much as I blame myself.
I should have saved you. I should have been clever enough to see the attack coming. I should have prevented it.
I failed you. Once. I won't do it again. I promise.
From wherever you are, you'll see how well I will do, for me, for you. I'll live the life you can't have. I'll live for us both. I'll be happy, because if I'm not, I know your ghost won't leave me in alone. I know you well enough, even death wouldn't prevent you from coming back to lecture me.
Life is a treasure. A treasure which it would be unforgivable to waste. So I won't.
I will take care of our business, of this adventure we started together because of our craziness, of your faith in us, in me. I will make us the Kings. The shop is our kingdom, it will never be only mine. Each of us is a part, a half of that kingdom, it'll always be thus.
Do you know why I'm writing? No? Neither I do. I don't care, I feel slightly better doing it.
Do you know how I will send it to you? No? Come on! I know you have an idea. I have some too, but they're not great. It's midnight, night was your time, day is mine. Well, I will nevertheless find something. It has to be impressive! By dragon? Why not, unfortunately it's not very original.
I'll find better. Would you mind giving me a clue? What a lazy ass you are even now! I'm kidding...
In fact, at that very moment, I'm crying... Perhaps my tears will bring you my words?
They express my feelings better than anything else.
Keep an eye on me! I'll show you, I don't know precisely what yet, but I will show you something you'll be proud of.
I won't say I miss you.
I won't say I love you.
I won't say I'm proud of you.
I will only say you'll see. You'll see the proofs of everything I won't say.
You'll see what I'll do for you, for us.
You'll see.
I'll show you.
So, don't stop watching me!
Edit: 10 Points Awarded by Fate, 12/10/11.